I am just setting up this blog and am quite clumsy with this software. Please bear with me. I will try to get better.
I decided to create this blog because I need the discipline of having a blog to help organize my thoughts and need a space where I can do so anonymously and thus feel free to be honest. Social media I already use under my real name are populated with people I know and who know me. It’s become impossible to be honest in those spaces, because I don’t wish to hurt anyone’s feelings. I have found that although people claim they want honesty, they really don’t.
Furthermore, I have no intention of ever posting photographs of myself or of anyone I know or of providing information on where I live or details of my personal history that would make it possible to work out who I am. I’m sure that even a mediocre hacker could break into this site, but, honestly, I am not worth your trouble.
So let’s get the big reveal over with: I am a transgender woman on the other side of my medical transition with a new legal name and so on. I have been living as myself for a few years now. It’s both gone very well and has entailed some heartbreaking sacrifice.
As hard as this has been in so many ways, I find living openly as me to be far better than living inside a mask that was slowly killing me. I would probably be dead by now if I hadn’t transitioned.
Yes, gender dysphoria really is that bad.
This blog will be about both the good and the bad of rebooting one’s life in such a drastic way. I will try to be as honest as I can.